Don't know where to start to summarize my life, cause it keeps expanding and gives me all sorts of problem. I'm a optimistic person, who barely give a shit about what others think but, i do care shit loads about my best friends. im all about 7 of them. Everything i do, i think of them. I know this sounds ultimately fake, but yes, i do think of the consequences and how would they feel. Honestly, I know i have been going too close to somee people, and going further and further from someee people. I dont want this to happen either, just want us to be happily laughing together at stupid jokes but no one is giving me this chance. Just when i have the thought of turning myself into a new person, I see all of you slowly changing. All going towards HER, and all the secrets that only you all know. I'm a sensitive person, when it comes to friendship im WORSE. I don't do things according to my mind and logic. I only think of things as how i think it is so thats why theres always misunderstanding but i will never tell it to anyone. I keep it all to myself and one day i burst into anger and tears out of no where and make you guys go frustrated about what to do with me. Im quite surprised that none of you have abandoned me yet. Cause a girl like me don't deserve best friends like all of you. Im not proud of having him as my ex, not proud of Dv, not proud of anything more than I have 7 of you as my best friend. Too late to realize.