I sit here all alone again, staring into the dark and silence that kills. Here in this room where we last laid in bed together so close, once again I feel the memories haunting me, forcing me to go back to the past that I tried so hard to wash away. It's been so long since I last felt this way. Ever since you pushed me away, and I've got my mind set on him, this very different him. No, I don't love you anymore, not one bit. I've settled down well, very well, it's just sometimes I feel the urge of clicking on your msn display name and start off with a random topic, and hoping that you will open up to me about what had happened between us. I don't want you to love me, I just want u to tell me, what went wrong, what really went wrong between us that 18months had to come to an end. It feels dumb to be left behind for no proper reason. Even if I had to be killed, tell me what did I do at least. Don't you know how painful it is to be left behind by u again? And this time felt worse than ever cause I never expected it to end this way. If you are still here, reading all these craps, tell me, tell me who did you want me to be?